Saturday, December 29, 2012

christmas drinks

i've recently 
and by "recently"
i mean, "always--but sometimes moreso than others"
hit my poor woman stage.

it's the part of life where i accomplish something big
and it takes a little bit of cash to do so.

on that note--i've never really mentioned the fact that i feel like i'm just now learning how to save money.
at least i only went through about 20% of my life not saving money.
now i can set myself up for success for the rest of it!
(or as much as possible.)

i one day had no money
so i bought a glass of bistro red from a local bistro.

a blend, a good slightly tannic blend
that covers the palate and just tastes good and darn easy tasty.
easy to drink.

philip's sister,
bought a box of it for christmas.
we drank it.
A LOT of it.

yum yum!
perfect for the holidays.


an easy way to be boozy without being a slob. :)

this belgian framboise sure does hit the spot in terms of special drinks.
unlike mixed drinks, it offers an uncomplicated but full flavor.

syrup-y, smooth, raspberry,
hits the tongue full force and leaves you wanting more.

i practically drank a complete 750 mL bottle during a three hour game of tripoly, 
handing off two glasses to philip's dad and sister.




know those moments where you reflect?

know those times where you pause, and gasp, and pull all the air you have into your throat and sigh out with bright eyes and a happy heart all the good you have inside of you?

know those times where you choose to throw yourself forward into the unknown, trusting that whatever you have ahead will certainly be more exciting and more fun than anything you've had behind?

know those times when you laugh all night, laugh all morning, laugh all evening and all throughout the day?

know those times you finally relax and breathe and re-focus when you see someone you love, THAT someone you love?

know those times?

i have those.

my blessings.

i am so blessed for Philip. so blessed to have him in my life.
i love him, and i'm keeping all the promises to myself i ever and always decided to make.



hardly, when i really think about it.

EXHILIRATED is more like it.

pushing the limits
pushing my limits
encouraging and coaxing me onward and forward and onward and forward and continuous.

i think about the scary things sometimes.
but i'll figure them out.

philip and i are laying side by side in bed right now.
he's playing words with friends
and just rolled over to kiss me.

he has no idea i'm blogging about him.

we hold hands together in the middle of the bed and i type one-handed till it gets less romantic and more annoying not to use two.

my blessings.

my spirit.
my soul.
my loves.
my courage.


Thursday, December 27, 2012

moving update

of course the holidays were beautiful.

my first holidays away from home, and i loved them.

however, the holiday post is going to wait.

we're moving!
and there is sooo much to do and keep track of.

thank goodness i'm a detail-oriented kind of gal. there are soo many little things to do and keep track of. this morning i laid in bed and made lists for every day leading up to the Big Move. all the visits, errands, packing days, everything, and fitting it all in around my work schedule. madness and chaos.

but an update is an update.

phil is still selling his car.
i'm still trying to find someone to take over our apartment.

we'll see what happens after we get those two things finished.

i'm looking forward to making a home in new york city!

Friday, December 21, 2012

3 am

"Philip! Philip!"

I said.

I crawled into bed. on the tiny side. there was 3/4 bed on the other side.

"philip, i have an amazing idea!"

berrrrrrughhhh, he said, and I pushed him onto his back and grabbed ahold of his shoulders.
i pulled my face really close to his, kissed him on the cheek, then started jabbering about a script i just had an idea for.

philip grinned in disbelief. it was nigh 3 am.

"sweetheart, i love you, but it's 3 am," he said.

i know! i exclaimed! i know! i know what is happening right now! you're sleeping and i'm excited! and i'm going to keep telling you my plan!

and i did.

and then i was too excited to sleep, so i got up and wrote a script for a 1.5 minute mini movie called, "Grown Ass Woman."

Then I wrote the shooting schedule, and scene breakdown, including wardrobe and location.

Then I went to bed.
3:14 am.



philip was looking at my blog.

"i get to be your ugly boyfriend," he said.

i immediately cried.

"you are Handsome Philip."

you'll need to put handsome philip pictures up, he said.

this is handsome chef philip.
(you can tell he's a chef by the socks.)

this is handsome halloween philip.
we're kids. he's 9, i'm six and a half.

this is handsome cutie friend-of-animals philip.
he had birds all over him!

this is handsome my-mouth-is-full-of-food philip.
very worth it.

this is handsome d-bag philip.
(he made me say that.)

and here we have handsome russian philip.
he likes to dress up and be beard-y.

my point is
handsome philips
are all philips.

so THERE, philip!


i bought tickets today!

one way tickets to NEW YORK CITY.

and when i did,
i was just about ready as heck to 

right away.

it's not about leaving, per se.

it's about FLIGHT.
it's about TAKE OFF.

it's about DREAMS and SKY and LIGHTNESS.

it's about me
and my life
and getting to what I've been working for 

needless to say,
i was bounding.
i am light.

and i am ready.

stay tuned!

up next!
renting the apartment
philip selling his car
us packing everything up in ten days
and then the biggest adventure begins!


Tuesday, December 18, 2012

aaaand we're back!

Hey, Folks--remember me?
I went on super sabbatical for ages.

Turns out, I'm bringing sexy back.
and by "sexy back," i mean, I'm back in the blogging saddle and ready to advocate for myself.

I thought about creating a new blog, but why? I have this beautiful one going strong with history and character, and besides, I still love all kinds of new things every day.
Today I love this, today I love that.

Today I love a glorious return.

In case you don't know the good news, and seeing how my last post on September 18th was about moving to New York, I am HAPPY TO INFORM YOU THAT I AM, IN FACT, MOVING TO NEW YORK CITY on January 13th.

It's a bit more complicated than that.

Philip got an offer to work with wd~50. He has a friend who works there, and person to person got a call and an email to show his stuff for a couple of weeks and learn a bit about what cooking in the Big Apple is like.
We were both thrilled, of course, and I very quickly encouraged Philip to go.

Long story short, and I don't remember who posed the idea first, but Philip and I both thought that, well, heck, I'll never have enough money and the time couldn't be any more opportune than now to GO, to MOVE, to GET THERE.

So I started looking at what GETTING THERE would mean at this point in my life.

What it means, technically, is couch crashing. It means we arrive in NYC on January 13th, and stay a week with a friend here, and a week with a friend there. I have two weeks of lodging in the books, and figure that gives me enough time to get a few jobs and begin scraping some NYC rent money together. We'll be packing up all our things throughout Jan. 1 and 10th, and pay our rent through February in the hopes that someone will resign a lease with our landlord and help us get out of our contract. 

I did have a lovely job interview with Mt. Sinai Medical Center's PPHS office, in the hopes of returning to a quiet and focused life of research compliance. Restaurant Management sure has been fun, but man oh man if it isn't exhausting. :)

So I'm planning on just seeing what happens!
Next step is to find someone to take over the apartment, writing a couple of heartfelt thank-yous to friends here in Cincy, and packing up what is making the move/tossing out what isn't. 

I'll need to print off copies of my work resumes and my acting resumes, print out headshots, and make certain I can locate my business cards and voice demos (which I'm finally going to be able to use.)

I need to collect legal documents for both Philip and myself, documents that help us get jobs or new bank accounts, and have all our references at the ready for work and apartments.

Mostly, mostly, I need support and momentum. My landlord is expressing his disdain for this plan, and I need the momentum to prove to him that we can and will do this move! 

Now, who's with me?!


Monday, September 17, 2012

Thursday, September 13, 2012

new phone

this is a beautifully complicated story.

my iphone was stolen.
from work.
and it probably wasn't a fellow employee that did it.

you see,
people in the bistro have told me countless times
"don't leave your phone laying around."

the homeless people/the drugged people/ the crazy people/ the dishonest people
they all frequent the gateway quarter
and they all like to wander in the TOB doors.

"don't leave your phone laying around,"
everyone says
so i don't
but i do :(
and i don't have pockets in soo many of my clothes
so sometimes, down my phone goes, and then, up again, it goes, back into my hands.

not yesterday though
it was down,
and then
it was gone.

i knew it right away too
i just knew
PHONE? gone.
PHONE? not where i thought it was.

and so i called it.
no answer.
busy signal.
called again.
busy signal.
dill called it.
no answer
we texted it.

i didn't worry about it.
it's a phone!
no big deal.
i've gone without a phone before.
and it was getting glitchy anyway,
shorting out, taking a long time
small glitches i'd ignored because replacing an iphone is not an inexpensive task.

and today,
on my day off, 
good thing,
i went back to the bistro and checked around for it.
no phone.

days off are a weird thing for me.
i'm either so exhausted i can't get out of bed
or i wander around aimlessly wondering what to do before i go back to work the next day.

so i went to church.
and before church,
dill and i went to findlay market, and he bought spices, and we got vietnamese pho, and i rummaged around in my bag and found the three dollars and change i've had for two weeks--literally, the only money i have.
i wanted a coffee. or a latte. or maybe a piece of cake.
but i didn't buy any, and we had a lovely lunch, and dill went to work, and i went to church.

st. mary's on 13th is gorgeous.
big, cathedral-y
the kind of church that you don't have to pay attention in, just listen.
i did.
i prayed, i listened, and when mass was over, 
i headed out the back and saw the votive candles by the door.
$2 says the sign,
and i reach into my bag and pull out my three and change and toss them in the cash collector.

"please, lord,"
(i pray,)
"watch over philip today. may his day be filled with strength, peace, and a good sense of humor,"

and out the door i go.

i hop in my car,
drive to the AT&T store,
and walk in.

i'm unkempt.
a red jersey dress, red sequined heart, and gray keds.
long, wild hair.
dreading what iphone expenses are to come.

i know i can't afford a new phone.
in fact, i know it'll probably be another two months before i get something in my hands.
it's just that kind of money existence for me right now.
but In, i go, to do the responsible thing, and at least see what my options are.

turns out 
i'm in luck.

the AT&T guy, Mike, is fantastic, and he knows and loves my bistro.
turns out, AT&T is having a sale on the exact iphone i have, the iphone 4 for .99 cents.

.99 cents!! i laugh!! .99 cents!!
here i was, all morning, thinking of buying coffee or cake or a latte,
and instead, INSTEAD,
i'm charging an iphone 4 to my credit card for .99 cents.

i die.
i rejoice.
i bless my stars and thank the heavens.

every little glitch worked itself out.
lucky me!

Wednesday, September 12, 2012

breakfast detritus

the birthday party two days ago was great fun.

and now,
for the first time since moving in
my fridge is actually stocked with food.

it hasn't been stocked for multiple reasons
1) it turns out i don't need that much food at home
i'm paid in meals at work, and one only needs so much.
2) even if i didn't get paid in meals, i get home much too late for dinner.
3) since i get paid in meals, i'm obviously not making a fortune in paycheck so i don't have any cash for that, anyway.

the fridge is stocked.
with bacon
cinnamon rolls
two cartons of eggs
and a whole additional quiche.

i'm eating it bit by bit
thank god
or i'd walk away being a carb-loaded blimp of a woman.

Tuesday, September 11, 2012

i just decided

i just decided i'm moving.

i just made a choice.

i just made the choice.

i can't believe it took me so long.

i can't believe it took me two years.

i just decided i'm moving to new york.

i just decided that.


i can believe it!

i finally can believe it!

i'm moving to new york.

i'm working on it.
for about a year.

a big move takes about that much time.

i just decided to begin working on that now.


dilly deli

took me to dilly cafe
for my birthday
saturday night.

we sat outside on the patio
drinking wine
reading the menu
talking about philip's work there
watching couples dancing and kissing 
and loving the fall air.

we lazed during dinner.
we chatted with philip's friends 
we chatted with philip's old kitchen.

we planned and loved and looked at the stars.

later, we sat in the bar with friends
catching up
catching forward
celebrating a wedding and celebrating it all

i wore sequins and green, laughing and dancing and relaxing for now. :)

birthday debris

i woke up around ten this morning
#thankgod i work at 3

and surveyed my apartment for birthday debris.

amazingly, there was little.

philip and i clean well.

in fact
the biggest offender
was that someone had popped all the brussel sprouts out of the vegetarian quiche last night
and there were all these little brussel sprout shaped crevices all over the top of the quiche.

i baked it back up and ate it anyway. :) 
still good.

the birthday was WONDERFUL.
originally, we planned on going camping this weekend, but it didn't work out.
so instead, 
we hosted V.3 of the Monday Night Dinner Series,
which, just happened to coincide with my birthday.

screamed the invitation
and breakfast we did have.

Philip and I spent two days preparing!
Sunday was brunch
a trip to his parents' house
where he baked three cakes for my triple layer cake, (mango, pineapple, banana with strawberry-banana icing,)
and we painted dining room chairs in the garage all afternoon.

Monday was equally busy
and lovingly blessed, being my actual birthday,
waking up
thrift-store shopping for baking and serving ware
back to loveland for the chairs
picked up an additional rug and lamps from his parents' basement
home to unload
philip's apartment, to pick up cooking things
home to arrange, bake, cook, plan, clean, and party!

the party was BEAUTIFUL
and i had such a gorgeous birthday.

23 was an interesting year
a year of solid ground and patient foundation building

24 starts me yearning for life
yearning for passion, love, and theatre.

i'm re-writing the course of my life, now
deciding and choosing who i want to be.

24 is going to be one of the best years of my life, i can feel it.

Friday, August 31, 2012

the no good, terribly rotten, very bad day

was a pretty rotten day.

you wouldn't think it
by looking at that picture of me above
where i'm wearing stripes
and kicks
and holding a mini-golf stick

but it was. 

it started by waking up too late.

in a world right now
where all i do is run run runrunrun
you'd imagine that getting an extra two hours of sleep would feel like heaven.
but it didn't
and i woke up a crankypants
"so much free time! so much time that is mine! wasted!"

i settled down.
drank some coffee.
talked to philip about our plans for the day.

who knows? he said.
we have five hours before we need to be at jeremy's apartment, volunteering to set up for the Big Race,
we can do whatever we want!

we decided on batting cages. or mini-golf. or a silly duck boat tour of the ohio river.
one of them, we'd decided which later,
but for now, some coffee, some lunch, and we'll see what happens.

we did that.
i had a headache.
and we made our way to fairfield for batting cages.

i want to hit things! my body yelled, so i was pumped.
and then the batting cages were closed, so we did mini-golf instead.
and i was very excited!!
mini-golf! what a great thing.

in which i improved slightly
and philip remained very good,
philip receives a text setting the tone for the evening.
we were, after all, very pumped about our first ever 5k in which we'd decided to run.
we'd been training for a month
and by training, i mean, running and walking and jogging after work (11:30 pm - 1 or 2 am) in the downtown area.
philip, however, was not to take part.
the race, a "fox and hound" 5k, gives the lady runners a five minute head start. they take off, and five minutes later, the "hounds" come racing after them, trying to catch a foxy lady.
philip needed to go into work,
and i needed to go sulk in my bed at home till it was time to get ready for the race myself.

so i did.
and i ran.
and it was awesome.
and philip got finished with work early and ran down and met me.
and we got ice cream
and the ice cream man gave me the wrong flavor and too much hot sauce

and i couldn't understand how a very terrible day could actually be such a very, very good day.
so we ate ice cream and watched a movie, then kissed each other good night, and i fell asleep like a rock to eliminate the terribly good day variables.

Saturday, August 18, 2012

street pops

delicious morsels of popsicles
of the most divine flavors.

plum basil.

cherry limeade.

i thought about sriracha
but chicken-ed out.